I am not being very faithful to my purpose journal. I am still searching for my purposes but I do believe the Lord finds uses for me. I do believe that I am not as faithful as he is in my own life!! Anyway, the marital wilderness is a bit calmer but I think Marty and I have learned the dance of not fighting. We are both making attempts at being respectful and not getting into it much. The biggest issue we get tense about is when we disagree on issues with our daughter. I jump in like have done with the other kids and try not to but if I think he is being unfair or bordering on emotional abuse or is verbally abusive I will jump in. But really, this is only about once per week...for now. The daughter, right now, wants to do all sorts of "grown up things" and some of them I feel okay with but know I should make her wait and others like getting a cell phone I am okay with but Marty because he is so old fashioned and hates technology, doesn't want her to. We will figure that out soon and soon she will have one.
Summer is here and I am happy. It is warm and pleasant and the atmosphere is summery. Marty is in a better mood especially when he is with friends. I still love it when he is not around some of the time so I can feel that sense of freedom I feel when he isn't in the house. As for the season we have seasonal things we do: BBQs, ours and others', walking and running (Marty and I ran together last night in a 12K run which was fun) and just being outside more. I am reading a lot with my new reader and I love it. I have a devotional on there, 3 bookmarks in the ESV bible and a Christian living book at any one time. Then I am also reading non fiction and fiction stuff. Truly fun. Oh and since daughter is old enough, she has been asked to babysit some kids nearby since they knew she took a class for it and they have a need. So I love that she can earn some money this summer.
I have a friend who is with her son in NYC and he had surgery a few days ago for a reason that is so unfair but with God we have faith it will all turn out for the best. I wish she wasn't there though. It's just not right but hope he recovers well and soon. Another friend lost her mother and another friend has a mother who was just diagnosed with cancer. I thank God for a healthy mom and family and that I am healthy too.
My younger brother and I have been talking more and more about our marriages because he is in a similar situation as I am with a wife who is an unbeliever. The most dangerous kind too: The unbeliever who thinks they are a believer and thinks they don't need as much Jesus as "over believers" have. (Ha I just coined that word. You know what I mean.)
Marty just got home and the tension is back. Time to knock off.
