I would be naive to think anything can or would go fast on a spiritual journey of change and growing in God as a "little Christ". I am very far from that and yet I am a "Christian". Sometimes my flesh is stronger and I get so mad at myself. I am often not in the Spirit. Such a common theme in these entries! Thus the journey continues! It can be maddening. I feel so immature both in my flesh and in the Spirit. I know there are two thing required of there being spiritual growth: being in the Word and a rich prayer life. God continues to show me through my Christian reading that this is consistent and of course! What other two things could possibly be in those spots? And so I must continue to pursue God and His Son through those two ultimate activities. Just read in Ravi Zacharias' book Grand Weaver, that many Christians use prayer as a "spiritual spare tire" to be used in an emergency only. I liked that comparison and am guilty of it. I am a lazy pray-er! Also, we cannot think that since God is sovereign that we don't need to pray! I have done that too.
The prayer in my life continues to be around the log in my own eye and my relationship with my husband and daughter. I often believe they are more at fault but I need to focus on my own sin and just pray for them without the sin of partiality-- thinking it's more them and not taking seriously my role. I pray too for the softening soil of their hearts in their faith and desire to know Christ. My failures to my daughter will be the topic another time. I must also pray for others more and for causes.
This last week a man who went to my high school was murdered along with his wife allegedly by his 12 year old son. It has been a horrible thing of course and many of us will pray and talk on a conference call this evening namely to support his 7 kids who need God more than ever. The family is Christian but something went extremely awry. This huge event can have it's ripple effects with other families and I pray for one ripple with my own family too and in the things we say to each other without much kindness or compassion.
That is all for now.
