I am in one of those rare moments that I treasure. Sitting with laptop, watching Nature and being completely alone. The only thing marring this scenario is that I have been sick or mostly sick for the last 3 weeks and can't seem to get over it. I have not missed any work or anything else for that matter but I am getting worn out by an incessant cough and a head swirling with a cold. But I so rarely get sick I guess I deserve this! I can ponder my blessings and know that it is temporary and others are sick permanently. I always can tell myself how much I have and I don't like to pity myself or bemoan my situation. I have too much and I simply need to stretch my arms upward to embrace He who gives me everything. And I can appreciate this because there is so much misery in this world and my trials are simply nothing. The other day on my bible station, I heard a blurb about thanking God for our trials. Ha! I have never done that but he was right. Without my trials I sure would get complacent in my faith and my need for Him would weaken. We think we don't need Him when all is well or at least we don't need Him as fervently. And how silly is that. He has us right where He wants us for sure. My biggest trial continues to my marriage and I will continue to grow and stretch as a result of the lessons I am learning daily. I find myself wondering if larger more painful trials are in my future. Though my marriage is one, it's not like an ongoing hurtful experience, there is some maintenance to it and I have many times of joy and satisfaction.
I am reading Holy Ground about a man's transition from Catholicism to evangelical and it's really good. He gives a lot of general Christian theology (i.e Martin Luther) and it's educational and something I can relate too since it's my story too. I am reading Matthew, doing a self study on Romans and continue growing from the insights of John Mac Arthur's Drawing Near devotional. He is so prolific. I am continually blessed by other Christians in my life both those I know and don't know! I can only hope and pray that everything I learn will somehow help me "feed" my husband and daughter as we struggle and thrive in our lives. I would like to think we thrive as a married couple but I know that until Marty turns his life over to God and what His Son did for us, it won't be. For this I pray...
