In about 24 hours Marty leaves on a 7 week trip he has planned for over 2 years. It's about time. A year ago he had to cancel due to being sick and surgery. It got moved to a year later and now we are here. It has been a long time in coming and he is so one minded about it that it has been hard to talk with him about anything else. He isn't interested in much else unless it's about the house issues or lists he has been preparing for me so I can get along okay without him. I am blessed that he does all that. But I think I am ready for a break in this marriage and the stress that goes with it. Nevertheless, we went out for dinner tonight and have had a nice evening. Despite ALL the problems, I will miss him and he said the same. Just because our marriage is a minefield (or a land fill) doesn't mean we won't miss each other.
It will be good for my daughter and me to live more casually but I will have to stay on top of all his chores and responsibilities. I plan on dedicating certain times to focusing on those and then I won't be so prone to putting things off. My daughter and I continue to have power struggles though I am trying to teach her the ways of a Christian walk and am constantly praying for my own walk. I intend to do devotionals with her once he is gone since it's so hard while he is home. We must make use of our time for sure.
Next week I will be meeting with my Pastor regarding issues with my marriage and my thoughts about coping and being biblical in that coping.
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