healing

At this time, there is healing I think. I don't know how well I am living in the Spirit but I do believe it's the only way for there to be some changes. Any human effort on my part only serves to mess things up. I am praying and reading the bible and applying it to my life the only way I know how. I collect verses and see how He talks to me in His word.

The LORD has truly answered some prayers as I see little tiny miracles that just surprise me and yet they shouldn't. If I am surprised then my faith is little. I should expect miracles daily in my home. But just someone's healthy reaction or an apology are the miracles I am talking about. A day with no fight, a laugh, a kiss. These little things add up. And I am so grateful for any one of them.

I had surgery this week. Minor yet something that needed fixing. I have 4 days of couch time! Then I have goals to get healthier in my weight and activity. I really want to succeed there. I am not huge but I need to lose about 20 pounds. This has nothing to do with anything but it's another example of my laziness of which I am for sure. It's another area of my life where I need healing and I can only do this through prayer and motivation and trust in He who sustains me in all ways.

Marty and I are co existing now. He has been supportive of my health issue and is being very helpful. He uses it to get attentinon for himself which is one of his issues, using things to get attention. I don't like that but I ignore it and give it to God. I thank God for the positive qualities I do have in Marty.

My step son has been communicating with me and asking questions about things. I have shared some things and he has been supportive and interested in my spiritual life and his dad's. He has shared much with me about his life, which is new and different. I have really appreciated this opportunity. I was able to help him about 10 months ago on a difficult issue and I believe that helped open the door.

So I will read and write and listen to my family and try to let the Spirit of Christ Jesus operate and control my life. I give it to Him. It's not mine anyway.