Hard to believe I have not written here for 4 months! A new year is beginning and who can help but wonder about the future and set new goals? Most of my goals are spiritual and focused on my own behaviors. I also have goals for others' behaviors but I know I can only take care of "the log in my own eye" and I pray that if I change some bad patterns it will serve to inspire others. Or at least influence others. Others being my husband and daughter. I think we have gotten into some real ugly patterns and I have to take responsibility as the one who has Christ and knows the Truth that I also must act above reproach. So I pray for the Holy Spirit to sprinkle the sanctification of grace all through my house this year. But first, one day at a time. I am so blessed in so many ways and I can only pray that the Lord will help my home be healthier as we all struggle in this human condition.
On my anniversary just last week I spent the day trying to figure out how to possibly leave/separate from Marty should he continue his temper and behavior toward our daughter. Fortunately, God always answers me at these times and gives me some peace to settle down. Marty said on the way to dinner that he was happy to be married to me which opened a door to have a little bit of a talk and I was able to say some things and he listened. Not to ruin a good moment but he knew why he said what he said. Anyway, it continues to be so challenging to live with him and I continue to trust that God has His reason for having me here. I am definitely being refined in the fire!
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