So all day today it was exciting to think I started a secret blog. I even happened to do a group today on journaling. That's all this is. Anyway, I can't spend too much time on here for the very reason I am doing this. My husband is downstairs on his computer and well it is inhibiting to do much of anything I love with him around. Including journaling or relaxing on my laptop.
As I said yesterday, I am doing this blog/journal as a way to express myself, write my thoughts down, store some great quotes and verses and to be exactly who I am without worrying about what others think. I pray this stays just with me. If I die tomorrow no one will know this is here and it is safe. If this happens to get discovered no one will know who I am. Nobody I know will find it. Ha, and i don't even really have any big secrets!!
So I thought of the name quickly. I could have put some thought into it but I didn't much. I wrote purposejournal because it is a journal of my purpose. God has a purpose for me. Period, that simple. I want to explore that purpose. Pray about it. Learn to be in His will. There is no safer, better place than to be in His will. This I am learning.
I love God with all my heart but I don't think I always do it well. I let too many things distract me from Him. I want to dedicate myself to Him far better than I have and forever. I want to serve Him which is my purpose. I want to glorify Him which is another purpose. That is all we are all here for. This blog/journal is for Him. And to help me get to be myself freely.
The reason I say that and the reason I have to have a secret journal is because I am married to a person who does not have a relationship with Christ and is increasingly hostile toward faith. Thus I have to inhibit who I am to try and find peace at home. I can't be myself even with our mutual friends or I will embarrass him. So I submit to Him as my husband but at cost to being who I am. It's not a pretty place to be. More on that later.
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